When reflecting on my practice (which I’m trying not to do so much these days), there is one recurring theme that arises more than others. Frankly, that there is no self who gets enlightened. There are no awakened egos. Nothing against the ego. It’s not bad or evil or anything. It’s just not who wakes up.
I’ve heard Jack Kornfield say in number of recorded talks that when he first started meditating, he was expecting to acquire a new enlightened personality. But that never happened. Rather, through is practice he has come to know his true nature – who he really is. He’s not the only experienced teacher who says this. I hear it over and over again from the most realized people I know.
We can work on our egos. There’s nothing wrong with that. In fact, we probably should for the sake of others. But that is not awakening. That is not truth realization.
“Who are you really, wanderer?”